in honor of his departure from the show. silly people who wanted to make more money off of an angel spinoff. basically the best human/vamp love combo (i feel shallow writing that, but its true.) im happy to be in the 2000’s now because the fashions are not strange as the 90s. 4 more seasons!!!
sometimes i forget. i forget what my life is about. i tend to think that its about my wants, my needs, my own selfish motives. i start to believe that my time is really mine, and that i can do whatever i want. that’s how i ended up being on tumblr trying to find some cool image of a butterfly by searching the website. then i wound up seeing a picture of an arm with tons of cuts and a picture of a butterfly, which lead me to this blog http://my-self-harm-confessions.tumblr.com/ my heart fell when i saw the images and the statements about cutting. it stopped me dead in my tracks and i was like what are you doing with your time? do you not remember what God has done for you? what He has redeemed you from? when you spend your days wasting time doing little meaningless things, you forget the love that God has for you and how you can try to help shed light for people who are hurting. also at the same time, i was watching an episode of Buffy where a kid was going to commit suicide because he felt so overlooked and was hurting so much.
i think when we get wrapped up in ourselves, we forget about others, which doesnt seem like a big deal. but it is because we are not alone. our actions reflect on everyone else. whether it is using someone for sex to make yourself feel better about your ego, failing to forgive a friend whose hurt you because you deserve a better friend and they deserve to suffer, or judging someone by their appearance, you are devaluing a human life. you are hurting someone else. too often i forget that people are just that-people, who are hurt and broken and are craving love.
i am reminded how much i need to show that love. God showed it to me when i didnt deserve it and was a mess. i fail Him often, but He never fails me. i wish there was a way that i could articulate perfectly the hope and love that i found in Him. He is my healer. He wants to heal and love everyone. His heart hurts for whosever blog that was. He doesnt want anyone to suffer like that. there is Hope. i found it. i often forget it, but luckily Hope never fails or changes. Hope remains constant and anchors my soul. i pray that i can stop being selfish and remember to love others and to show them this Hope so that they no longer live in a world of hurt, but at the end of the day can know that it is well with their souls.
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love.love.love. i want to go and see this magical place.
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my summer show (since i only have a month of summer i hope i finish in time.) i am on season 3 and loving it. baby booth is so adorbs and im pretty positive that willow/lily looks exactly the same in both this and how i met your mother. the show is so funny and satisfies my inner nerdiness. and it’s made me so happy that we’ve moved passed the 90’s fashion because it is really completely awful. plus its so so so much better than twilight.
these past few days ive been studying for my bio exam which i suck at, but i’ve been looking at it as a way to see how cool God is. He created all these crazy organisms to function in such complex and diverse ways, but yet everything works together! i’m seriously blown away by how great He is.
gah. i have another like 2 hours worth of writing this paper. and its a super depressing paper about AIDS and Jail. plus im going to go over the page limit but nbd (although im kinda proud of myself cause im seriously the least verbose writer ever). but luckily i have my coke zero, skittles, nut mix, and today’s hits pandora station to keep me going.
and c.s. lewis and my bible during my breaks ftw.
